Musings on Overthinking

I suppose I just feel like writing. You know, as a poet, I always feel compelled to rhyme, to sell my mind on paper. But I suppose that sometimes, it's best to forsake my talent, to take in the entirety of what my mind has to offer, beyond the metric rhythms floating in this magnet of thought patterns I call my brain.

Mostly, I'd like to arrange a way to not think...well, not not think, just...not think so hard. It's something I'm very good at, and which occasionally sparks a backlash from those around me. Mostly just love interests. Mostly just women. And, you know, I can't decide if I prefer it that way; is it good to be this original, this unique of a mural, so much so that I push them away at times? Perhaps it's the weak ones, or the ones most drawn to me, that run away with fervency equal to their initial interest. I really can't tell--can you tell just how dissonant all this is, how I can't shut my analytical side even long enough to consider the simplicity of my plight, if one could even call it that? It really is rather bothersome...

Maybe I'm a genius, I don't know, but of all the stereotypes I might find in common with the truth of my grey matter, the one I think would fit most well would have to be the one of genius trapped in social inferiority, which--ironically enough--I don't know if conforms to this, since I get along rather well with others. Then again, it took me until the latter part of my latter years of adolescence to find enough in common with others, to find enough to smatter within myself, to find common enough sounds to mutter. So then perhaps there is a latency I cannot shake, of social misfittance, of a failure to relate on a denominator level with others, including women, although I can't be bothered to find out, because I also like my style. My approach, the words I find worthwhile, it's all a part of all I cherish, and if I did not care, then, well, I wouldn't be myself then.

But I like me. Even with the inconveniences it brings. And when I feel like writing, well...that's as good a sign as any that I'm pretty happy.

Theory of Expression

The more venues for expression an individual has, the less manifestation of negativity occurs within them.

Expression is the depiction or conveyance of feelings, of emotion, of thoughts and ideas, all of which is what actually drives mankind, and man, forward. Those who express themselves find outlets for all types of negative energy, which exists within all humans.

Without this release of energy, the negativity is kept within the individual's heart, mind, and soul until they cannot cope with it. This may lead to destructive means of expression--crime, violence, scapegoating, or the projection of negative emotions onto others. It all goes back to expression.

Humans have a strong need to express themselves. Limits imposed by society may hinder this expression, however, and so the individual must take steps in seeking out venues they consider to be positive outlets. Although these venues may not be in accordance with social convention, and as such must be chosen with maturity and intelligence, they are integral in releasing negative energy.

Ao Quotes

"What happens once the pendulum of time stops swinging? Is time a function of the pendulum's swing, or does the pendulum swing to the rhythm of time?" -Ao

The Rule of Ultimatilality

Any intelligent organism that, through advanced technology or other means, extends its life or that if its species indefinitely, ultimately faces a loss of purpose for existence.

B-Boy Theory

As individuals grow as human beings, they develop characteristic traits that make them unique, along with interests that complement those traits. As I have evolved mentally for the past three years, one particular interest has allowed me to share my view on creativity with others, while enabling my intellect to expand as well: B-Boying.

Many people do not yet have a working understanding of what B-Boying signifies. To some, it is simply a dance, or even worse, a "street dance". To those that know and comprehend B-Boying, however, it is an artform in the Hip-Hop Culture, a craft that allows unlimited self-expression and creative freedom.

Through B-Boying, I am able to express to others that in order to attain a high level of achievement, people need to amplify not only their academic talents, but their creative talents as well. As I have progressed on my mission towards advancement of self, B-Boying has become a science of my mind, a science that I add on to daily. It defines and explains many of my thoughts, through the motion of art, on expression. It also fuses my philosophical and psychological personalities into one. B-Boying bridges the gap between my other interests to form one original concept of the self. I am a B-Boy.

The Theory of Mist

Life is composed of two types of mist: Dark Mist and White Mist. The world is generally made up mostly of Dark Mist. As people walk through Life, they are surrounded by this dark Mist, but have the ability to absorb mist, deflect mist, or do nothing at all.

The goal is to deflect the Dark Mist as much as possible. Unfortunately, the power is not unlimited, and will give out after some time. Doing nothing at all provides some protection from the Dark Mist, but after a limited time it becomes equivalent to absorbing it.

Dark Mist incorporates many of the most negative qualities in Life--hatred, oppression, ignorance, and so forth. After a certain amount of Dark Mist is absorbed, which is called the level of Tolerance, the person becomes Assimilated with it, acquires its negative qualities, and loses self--they are now part of the Dark Mist.

White Mist, on the other hand, exists in low quantities throughout the World. The White Mist is the opposite of the Dark Mist: it includes the positive qualities of Life, like love, peace, and happiness.

White Mist takes the form of loved ones, smiles, good times, and positive emotions. In order to protect oneself from being overcome by the Dark Mist, one must absorb the White Mist as frequently and as soon as possible. It provides temporary protection against 'Dark Mist Assimilation', while also replenishing Tolerance. Only through the long process of repeated White Mist absorption can the individual hope to ever reach the 'Dreampoint': the point at which Dark Mist is no longer effective in its attempts to Assimilate the body, mind, and soul, and at which the individual no longer needs to deflect it; 'White Mist Integration'.

Unfortunately, very few people ever reach the Dreampoint. The process of White Mist Integration is a long one that requires a powerful sense of self, patience, and the ability to efficiently deflect and recognize Dark Mist, which can only be accomplished by actively seeking out the White Mist.

The dominance of Dark Mist in the world is a byproduct of a failure in most people to seek out White Mist and absorbing it before Assimilation takes place. The power and abundance of Dark Mist is testament to the mental strength and determination needed to reach the Dreampoint. Unfortunately, Assimilation claims more souls daily, and the Dark Mist grows thicker, stronger, more determined. But there are those of us that can still see the Dreampoint in the Horizon. We WILL get there.