Poems--So Many Things

So many things...

So many things I know not about her

Of things that inspire or make her wonder

Things that come together to picture a person completely

Her dreams, her

Emotional seams

Devotional scene

Or

The ocean she sees

So easily.

So many things I will one day understand

Where, in the meantime, anticipation stands;

You know, patience demands

That I take all of it in as a delicate sand

And

Not trap our dances in hourglasses standing on end,

But instead,

As few of the so many things that I do comprehend, I

Can simply keep wishing her smile radiates what she's thinking,

That as many of the so many things as she'll one day choose to give me,

This bit of a smile and a kiss on her face,

And the way her two eyes light the way to a place

only hers and so privy;

That the little things we have shared--all the glances and stares, emotional dances and flares, bursts of words and illogical thirsts for the other--that all these little things,

Worth so many things,

Will earn a page in everything that will one day describe how our sun rose and shone and gave birth to a soul, unexpectedly so, unpretentiously old, so...

endlessly and neverendingly molded by the so many things I still don't know but hope to...

and it's those so many things that so elate me.

She is so amazing.

Rhymes--Disappointed

I got this beat and don't know what to do with it

Where to begin

Or how to soothe the view within

Pain in my chest

But no physical symptoms

No

Conditions I can think of

So there's no medicine for this one

Just a bag of tricks my mind is playing on my feelins

Yes, it's related to a woman

Wish I could forget the disappointment

Of the moment

When I first realized our motion wasn't workin

Or the second time she called me out on my motives

She called them selfish, I picked up the phone

And called Helpless

Could have left a voicemail

But lost the sentences

People may be right, maybe I'm too sensitive

Rhyme--Mixed Message

How I

Feel is confused

By her interest

And then huge

Disinterest

Like a rush of sugar

And then citrus

Cuz yo

How you go from brown

To green

To loud

To serene

And back to shoutin peace

When you love war

Seems like you don't know what you want more

Am I the right soundtrack or the wrong score?

If you can answer any of my many questions

Please...

I just want a straight message

Rhymes

Just days ago wore my heart on my sleeve/
not the hardest thing ever but still took honesty/
cuz I humbled myself to this girl named lissette/
you know i let the feelings get advanced accelerated mistake number one made from the start/
idealized her but realized worth is earned not given free like natural water/
friendship is a beam of light but the breeze of time is in the end responsible not forcing your mind on them/
time does the understanding/
landing in a lake of smiles is always nice/
but if you take the time to fill up a lake/
it's more precise/
so I relayed to her how I feel/
put aside emotion sentiments cuz the deal/
was sweating like the sun/
and to be the only one original individual kat/
planned ahead/
want to cultivate a positive friend/
keyword accentuated/
cuz mistake number two made/
and hated myself in a small way/
tried to play the game/
you know you've gotta be up front be your own way/
face contorted in expression of pain/
distorted brain trying to sort the recorded aftermath/
once we spoke/
hope she won't act unnatural/
now the agenda's on the same page/
actual purpose of a smile/
of a filtered conversation is to dial/
the number to her heart right/
where the word friend resides/
alive in her mind/
not die like the rest/
convulsion of thoughts expressed in disarray/
cuz space has this gravity attracting me to l/
plain simple message told her 'I like you'/
so it's insane to tell tame a wild sensation/
to be friends is just the reflex of our relations/
I have this feeling she might not pursue/
the proposition to/
be for her the kat to be for her there when she needs me/
I hope she sees me/
as what I envision a seed for growth/
if not I'll learn to cope/
I've learned not to dive into the pool cuz minds must be scoped first/
then enticed to fill out the survey to show worth/
slow work into our friendship I fear/
but the ball's in her court now/
want to believe I'm wrong about what's thrown down here...

Rhymes

I know this girl named lissette with a smile sweet like the honey honey pouring down from partitions in the sky/
I pick words nice to describe her worth/
finesse like gems/
excavated from the mine of sugarcane/
a plain simple girl with just enough delight to tame/
my complicated world and life/
original colombian I'm glad we're friends/
the clouds are written over with what flows from my pen/
inspiration when I look into those eyes/
which blind me momentarily like light/
reflected off white glaciers too bright/
sometimes melt the flavor in my heart/
you know/
like caramel drums sounding in the night/
mess with time's flow/
it has to stop for a second pause drop for a second all activity just to see your true beauty reflections/
if I was wind I would carry your scents in to the senses of all humans/
cuz it's aromatic essence got me coming back to your sands constantly like a tourist/
pleasant curious sentiments coming up into this corazón mío con tu luna llena siento el calor frio/
gracias al señor por dejarme ser un amigo de esta princesa bella/
sea como sea I'm satisfied/
with how god's stroke of the paintbrush makes the situation a colorful creation of the friendliest kind/
amiga mia always carry that sonrisa alright?

Rhymes

Ten days existed between two milleniums/
twisted the minutes to match the schematics of your smile/
cameras flashing in my mind slash heart/
as i recalled the last glances god allowed of your delightful face/
I trace my memories over the paper with you as the filament/
spaces in my head with lissette as more than 50% composition/
let the sweetness of her candied soul mend the affliction of my critical world/
distance from her didn't affect the physics/
still listened to the Dominican land with your name on its lips/
or was it me rhythmically chanting/
couldn't really tell the difference/
the feeling is a special lift/
spiritual wind calms the seas/
ocean mist turns to colorful breeze/
makes your fossilized grin within my M-I-N-D turn to the brightest coral reef/
weaving the thread of imagination into a kodak moment depicting your creation/
an archetype for all beauty/
the horizon must have turned to ruby/
when the most high first made you/
dawn shaded for the first time from the blue tears raining down from his eyes/
cried out of happiness until they turned crimson/
fate listened to god's greatest wishes as he made white light like egyptian ivory to shine fortune on a nice columbian family/
today they must be proud to have you as a daughter sister plus so many other nouns/
and even if life was soundproofed I'd still hear your melody loud and clear/
proof that your sound is unique/
so I invite you here to where my heart sleeps/
and promize to hold you dear for eternity
-Ao '01

Songs

Dame tu amor
Que te voy a dar
De mi pasion si me quieres amar
Dejame quererte como mas que un amigo
Si quieres que si
Dame una de tu sonrisas

Rhymes

I'm becoming a man/
slowly shapes are changing as I grow/
I'm becoming a man/
everything's a different color tone/
I'm becoming a man/
and as I transpire the wire fence I'm becoming a man/
no one would have ever thought/
I'm becoming a man...

Responsibilities becoming just more numerous/
while life used to be rough now I'm smoothing it/
like a lubricant/
making peace with my fellows/
meadows flow with water cuz now i show my mellow self/
pride is no longer a virtue/
instead I care about what's going on in the fam/
make it positive/
initiative taken to make it prosperous/
forget about the past let's acknowledge it/
but concentrate on what's ahead/
a future full of happiness/
I found a perfect definition to that adjective/
just the other day/
my flavor mixing with that of a Colombian magic gift/
sift through the faces in the crowd/
I picked the one smile that echoed loud up in my mind/
registered like a nine on the Richter scale/
stabilized myself/
then she became for me a Duracell/
raining down like hail/
so now I'm trying to tell y'all...
-Ao